I don't care anymore

I never have to try to be dramatic. I just am. (one of the ways in which I disgust myself)

The one thing I haven't cared about in over a year and a half now is TIME magazine. There's better. That, plus I never bothered to renew my subscription. But it has always been the perfect magazine for people like me, those who only seek to know the headlines and a few supporting facts in order to survive conversations in the work place. Do I really understand whats going on in the world? No. Do I care? I'd be lying if I said I did. Maybe because I know I cannot make a difference, politically speaking (there are those who think they can and they probably will). I got a free issue in the mail today. It happened to be a commemorative issue, The TIME 100 World's Most Influential People. I only recognized like 15. I was actually very discouraged by this. But then I got over it quickly and decided to write about it here. The last page of the issue came to my surprise. Written by Joel Stein, it starts off with "I don't believe TIME Editors think these are the 100 most influential people in the world." (surprised that TIME would publish such an article. Not surprised Joel Stein would write about it. I love Joel Stein). "I think they want you to think they think these are the 100 most influential people in the world". He writes the truth. And isn't that what we want from our news. Principle.

I used to want to be a journalist. Well I still do, but I never talk about it or think about it anymore. I would just suck real bad. I don't have the backbone, work ethic, or intelligence. "I suck too bad" is also a fat excuse. I also don't care anymore. I stopped reading the news. And to my surprise, I'm surviving okay. The news happens to come to me. I'm thankful I regularly encounter a few well-read, intelligent people who not only love to talk about the news but care enough to explain it to me. I love people like that - people who are interesting simply because they're interested.

This is precisely why my concentration for Poli Sci is Theory. I love to learn about the why but not the how or what. I don't fiddle with facts. I can't keep up with them. I can only organize the world between two categories, conservative or progressive, anything beyond the ideological motives of things I won't remember.

This post has no point. But its not supposed to. I'm blogging.